Let me give a little background. I am still with my husband and does not know I am planning on divorce. I left him a year ago but took him back, now we are right back where we started with him doing what he wants and not treating us like he should.
Anyway, Saturday was my birthday. I don't have any expectations of wonderful things, but I would like that to be one day to be at least a little special. Well at work I think I got a last minute Oh crap it's her birthday party, but what ever. On Saturday my husband had to work, so I was home with our 3 girls and I had them paint picture frames for me which was fun. Then my sister came a got the older 2 and I didn't think they would be gone to long but I ended up sitting home with just the baby for several hours. My husband was going to take them out to get something for me when he got home but my sister had them so he took a nap.
When I finally got them back we went to dinner with my sister. Right when we sat done my husband got mad because he thought the baby should sit in the highchair. I agree but I don't want to make the people around us listen to her scream thru thier meal because she wanted to sit on my lap so I held her and he did is best to ignore all of us (ON MY BIRTHDAY) thru the entire meal. My sister even tried to talk to him to get him to calm down, but he is stubborn.
Finally we left (he is still upset). We get in the car and my 6 year old was like, let's go do something for Mommy's Birthday. Well, my husband could not get home fast enough. We get home and he goes to watch TV in the bedroom, and pretty much ignores us the rest of the day. So I got the same thing for my birthday I got for christmas from him. Nothing.
Sunday he was still in a bad mood so I took the girls (and I told him why I left) and we went to a county park and had ALOT of fun. It was great. I didn't stress about what would make him mad. I didn't think about why he would do the my family is retarded sigh. I didn't have to hear that he needs alcohol from spending time with us (which he said a few times at dinner on Saturday) It was fun and relaxing. Then Sunday evening he was at least cival.
Well, Monday came. I went to work as usual, but about 4 pm I get a touch base request with my boss and my bosses boss. I knew it wasn't good, my stomach was in a knot instantly. My bosses boss doesn't talk to me if she can help it. Well I find out next week is my last week. I am angry because she found a reason she could write me up a couple weeks ago so I can't even apply to another department. There is no way she didn't know she was planning on laying me off when she did that. As a matter of fact, once I recieved that I knew that was just step 1 to getting rid of me.
My birthdays have never been huge parties, but this one sucks. So now I have no job, no car, bad credit and a miserable marriage. Way to spend my first 35 years!! I am not a whiner, but I think we all need to vent once in a while. I am a very positive person and I know I have positive inventory. I have 3 beautiful girls that love me, I have become very close to my sister and I am learning how much my friends and family care about me. I also get a good size severance package and I will be able to get unemployment.
Actually with my severance I will be able to just go out and get a car for cash. It won't be anything new, but it will at least be from this century. Someone I confide in at work said this would also be an opportunity to inniate divorce because I will not have to pay him allomony (I made more money) and if I need it I have the option of county assistance. But that is a discission I do not want to rush into. Anther positive is I get to stay home and take care of my girls for a while. Have I mentioned how much I love spending time with them? I just needed a minute to vent. Thanks for listening.
