After 7 years of what amounts to a solid friendship with my wife, I fell in love with another woman whom I've known for 5 years. In many ways I have loved her for the last two or three years. I am with her today (it's been a year) and I know we will be together forever. Not too long ago I would have laughed at what I am about to say, but she is my soulmate. Maybe you're laughing too.
Nearly a year ago, I left my wife and disrupted my children's lives out of my own selfish need for love and connection. It hurts to know I can't be with them 100% of the time anymore. It hurts to know my children have sadness in their lives at such young ages. It hurts to know that my actions caused all of that. If what I have done is a crime, my this is my punishment. My wife is willing and eager to prolong and intensify my guilt, and sadness. Always being hardest on myself, I'm doing a fair job of that witout her. Never the less, in the last 10 months I have received 500 emails/texts at all hours of the day and night insulting every aspect of me from my personality, my intelligence to my physical appearance. She also insults my family, my friends and anyone connected to me.
She has called me every name she can think of, sperm donor, satan, monster. I am horrible, laughed at, disgusted, evil, stupid, a joke, lazy, insecure, egotistical, everyone -friends, her family, neighbors, my co-workers hates me. I don't respond but they just keep coming. She plays on my guilt and I realize I have no way to stop her. In the meantime, I have to find a way to get through exchanges of the children without subjecting them to her anger (sometimes I'm successful, sometimes I'm not). Whether I deserve her anger or not, it is there. What do I do about it? What would you do?