Open letter - What ur porn did to me

The reason I let go of you. I lost you a long time ago. It was the same thing over and over. Empty
You were unable to give me what I needed/wanted and you were unwilling to make any changes for us. If you changed you would not be happy, you can’t change yourself for anybody else. This is so fucked up! Why didn’t you love me enough that you slipped away from me???
Things are not fine the way that they were. I can’t. I can’t. I can’t. I can’t live life like that anymore.
Closed windows, closed doors, no touching, no kissing, no communication, no feelings, empty empty empty empty – that is all I feel with you. So alone……just empty. There is no other way for me to explain it.
I was trying to hold onto something that is never going to be there, you were never there. You are lost and don’t even know that you are lost. I had no choice but to let you go as I was dying being with you.
You say that you are hurt but what I did??? Then why didn’t you not stop this? You continued to be in your world while I tried to tell you, to explain to you what you were doing to me! If you cared about us, about you, about me it would have never ended up here. I loved you more than anything, I would have done just anything for you…except lose myself.
What did you do to me? You either didn’t care or you didn’t stop long enough to think about how it was going to affect me. You call it “Art” to justify your way of hurting me. I call it for what it is to me. YOU HAD AFFAIRS! I hurt just as much as you did when I had my affair. YES I had an affair….You made it easy. God how I want you to know how easy you made it… In my heart I was divorced from you years ago, the pain was too much….but because of the love that once felt for you, I don’t want you to know the pain of the truth. The truth….The truth is my skin crawled when you had your less than three minutes of sex with me. No touching, no kissing, no closeness, nothing… just you fucking me like a nighttime bank deposit box. COLD AND EMPTY…Yes that is the PAIN OF MY TRUTH, not yours. That is what your “Art” did to me…You don’t deserve to know what you did to me, so I divorced you.

AMAZING.
He will NEVER be satisfied. Sex, like drugs, can become nothing unless it’s dosage is increased.

I know that guy, cause part of that guy is me.

There is a TV show on ABC called DOWNWARD DOG. 2 weeks was an episode called TRASHED.

That episode deals with people who have the need to satisfy themselves, NOT seeing what is in front of them.