I cant begin to explain the way I feel right now. I guess things of cheating and infidelity dont even cross your mind when you are happy and loved - or at least when you think that thats the case. I have a little baby girl (turning 2 in few months) with my Italian boyfriend. I have moved to Italy and started new life with him 4 years ago. We love(d) each other and I could never imagine being in situation I am right now.
My world came crashing down few weeks ago when I noticed change in his attitude. He became distant, constantly hiding his phone, closing tabs as soon as I approached him. He both work for same big corporation and I picked up on few strange things. His assistant started dressing differently, suddenly started wearing more make up. I even asked her few times about it. It would never even cross my mind she might be involved with him. After many sleepless night I couldnt help it and I opened his phone (normally it is not something I would do but I just knew deep inside something wasnt right). My heart almost stopped beating when I saw the communication between them - "I love you" & "I cant live without you". After I confronted him - he admitted to everything - meaning to the communication between them however he denied anything more happened between them. For the sake of my baby after many discussions we decided to make it work. He promised to give more of his time to our family and become more dedicated to our girl. In situations like this one would think things would change however the opposite is true. Every day after that he found excuse to work late hours, hang out with friends until late. Until yesterday when a colleague of ours decided to come over and talk to me. Apparently its been going on for months before, people at work events saw them holding hands. I found more mesages when i asked him to show me the phone. I am desparate. I dont want my baby girl grow up in this environment but at the same time I dont know if I have the power to go through with it. I believe I deserve more, I deserve love and someone who is there for me and my baby. Someone that is not selfish when it comes to dedicating time and love to us. Another problem is that my baby girl has Italian passport. Leaving him means leaving the country. Has any of you been in the similar situation? What advice do you have?