Today I took my wedding ring up to a local pawn shop and sold it. It felt like a load of my shoulders when I did it. Yes, money is tight and every extra dollar helps, but that’s not why I sold it. I was actually going to save it as part of the two lockers filled with memories I am saving for my daughter’s 18th birthday, but having the ring around, even out of sight in storage just kept bothering me. Hard to explain. I have bought my wife an engage ring, which she pawned with in the first year of our marriage. I have also bought my wife 3 separate wedding rings over a 10 year period, all of which she has long since pawned.
The first ring was bought caused I loved her and want our marriage to be symbolized. The second was because I felt bad over the first being pawned and wanted to replace it. The third ring I brought her was just done out of my own stupidity. 4 rings total, all pawned by her within 10 years. My turn to pawn.
Anyways, without knowing how to explain it, I wanted my wedding ring gone and detached from me. I haven’t wore it in well over a year and long since replaced it with a new ring with a personal message on it that I always wear now. It was time for this aspect to be done and over. I knew I wasn’t going to get a lot of money for it (and I didn’t), but I did get what seems like a weight off of my shoulders and a sense of closure. Well worth pawning it. The little bit of money I did get wasn’t used for my bills or such.
I took my daughter out to dinner and then to buy some new toys. I got to see my daughter happy over eating at her favorite place and picking out a few new toys she actually does deserve to have. Her happiness and my relief was what I got from pawning my ring. I am happy with the choice I made and the results. One more step forward in letting go and moving on. No regrets.