I miss being married and I am STILL married, (divorcing)! Since it's my second marriage I already know what I have to lose because I lost it before. It's why I married again.
Good new things came with my new marriage, for example someone unbelievably kind, charming, successful, handsome, fun, a good stepdad, etc. Also he takes care of stuff, like he's really just good at knowing how to fix and take care of things and just does it. I will miss that. He isn't afraid to be my equal and helps cook and clean. I will miss him driving me to work so I could put my makeup on in the car and sleep in a little longer. I will miss him balancing the budget and taking our incomes and saving but also splurging on traveling and taking me new exciting places which he knew I loved. I miss having someone sleeping on the other side of my bed, just to touch and know they are there if you need them. I miss being able to talk to someone who really knows me and let's me vent about my day while we cook dinner together. I will miss the positive relationships he built with my teenage son and daughter, and how they needed a man like him in their lives to be there and to trust when their father was absent. I miss getting dressed up and going on a date or even grocery shopping together! I miss having that one person who was always there for you and game to take on any new adventure. I miss lazy Sunday mornings drinking coffee and watching the sun rise. And I miss HIM.
What I won't miss... the nightmare it has become behind closed doors (well as much as possible.) The lying, cheating, omissions, infidelity. The unawareness that his actions have natural consequences that not even I can spare him from. I won't miss the charm and seduction he uses on society to make himself feel like a normal if not venerable person while I am looked at as the cause of his porn addiction and cheating. I will not miss people looking at me like what didn't I give him to make him do that? I can be me finally, even if it's a tougher job to provide and do it all myself, which has been the reason to delay for years.
