Its a sad situation. If he has not reached out since Dec, as sad as it is, I think its time to move on. Get help, reach out to people, be with people if you can, try to go out and have fun and enjoy life a little bit. Travel abroad if you can, or just go somewhere close, but change the scenery. If you have kids, arrange babysitting and go out and try to enjoy life. I think its OK to think about him and miss him, and even cry, but as time goes on, pain will subside. I am going trough the same right now... 10 months apart, 13 months old baby and he doesn't care. I filed for divorce and a sole custody. I miss him and cry often, in front of my baby or alone. And I asked my Dr for Celexa prescription :). Whatever it takes to get through this, but you need to take care of yourself. And pray. There will be other, better men, much better than him, and you will like them too, maybe even fall in love again, even if it doesn't seem like that right now ... you cry and your chest hurts, but you will be OK.