I was married for 58 days when he said he didn’t see us going anywhere, he asked me for a divorce and made me move out the same day. Within 2 hours I was back into my parents house, it wasn’t until I finished unpacking that it hit me. It has been so hard for me to get on with my life, it’s only been a month and he has already served me with divorce papers, he is dating someone new and apparently has moved on. I can relate to all of these emotions because I go thru them every single day.
I got myself a job, but even still I feel empty, broken, discarded, unappreciated. I go thru days that I don’t even feel like talking to anyone, I haven’t properly eaten in a month, I can’t sleep more than 2 hours, a pit in my stomach wakes me up and I feel like crying all the time. He never looked back, he never even gave us a chance. We had our issues like any relationship with the added bonus of intrusive in laws but I wanted to believe that we will make it. That we will get solid and united and we will pull thru it. I was blindsided by his decision I even thought he would reconsider but that wasn’t the case, I just really want things to feel normal, I can’t stop thinking about him I miss him, although I would not tell him any of this because I am respecting myself and his decision it hurts like hell. My soul is shattered. I can’t shake off the memories the good ones and the bad one, our honeymoon, our wedding day, his beautiful proposal, our life plans, I wish I could tell him how he made me feel with all of this, It just not going to change anything. Finding this site makes me feel less alone.