I am so confused and need advice. My husband cheated on me with a 19 yo stripper and now wants our marriage to work and this is not the first time he has cheated on me and I have been very patiece bc he suffers from bioplar disorder and always thought that the illness has a lot to do with this that if he was not ill he would not cheat but I am realizing now that that is not the case that I was just kidding myself and he is a cheater, I want to leave I can’t stay with him anymore even thou I love him very much, I just can’t let go of this last one.
He is going thrue a very hard manic episode right now and one day he tells me he loves me and the next he says that he cant do it anymore that he wants a divorce then the next is I am so sorry I love you so much I can’t be without you guys (we have three kids) it’s driving me crazy I just want to leave but I am afraid that if I leave he will really loose it and go crazy so I want to stay until he gets better and can keep a routine with his medicine and doctor but right now it’s so hard for me I don’t know what to do I feel sick I am so stress and my head hurts almost everyday I am trying to do my best to help him but i NEED TO HELP MY SELF BEFORE I CAN CONTINUE HELPING HIM I KNOW THAT BUT DON’T KNOW WHERE TO START.
Should I just leave with my kids and forget about him? or just wait for him to get better and then leave? I just don’t know what to do. I know I could not be with him anymore the pain and hurt he has caused me it’s just to much to handle the best thing for me and him it’s for me to leave even with all the love I have for him the pain is too much.