Well, the depressed/breakdown thing is as serious as a heart attack - and this time of the year only exacerbates it. Get on the phone to your MD (If you have a good relationship with your GYN, that’s a good person to ask, too) and ask for a referral to a counselor. If you need immediate help - sometimes just someone to talk to who has more expertise in dealing with what you need than we do, call a crisis hotline - they’re in the front of your phone book. Don’t be shy about it. It’s what they’re there for.About the attorney fees - rob Peter to Pay Paul, if you catch my drift. Credit Card, loan, whatever.Don’t give up on what you believe is right for you and your kids. The fight is worth it. Sometimes you need to take good care of yourself and indulge in a good movie (or the Macy’s Parade), or whatever. Just do the next thing that’s in front of you right now, and don’t look at it all at once. One of my favorite quotes is from Mother Teresa, who said something to the effect that although she was sure that the good Lord Doesn’t give us more than we can hendle, there are times when she wished that he didn’t trust her so much. If Mother Teresa got overwhelmed now and then, I don’t feel so bad when it happens to me.About taking care of yourself - eat well, get rest when you can, avoid drugs and alcohol (unless they’ve been prescribed by an MD who knows what he’s doing - a psychiatrist should be prescribing mind/mood altering drugs), get a little exercise (a walk around the block can do wonders, but I’m going to be sccrubbing the heck out of my tub later today). Like the flight attendant says - you have to put your oxygen mask on FIRST, or you won’t be able to help anyone else.You might also check out a support group for those whose family members are suffering with cancer - Mom’s MD or a local hospital can point you in the right direction.We’re here for you.