I wish you would be my friend.

Dear Wife of the Man I Fell in Love With,

I never wanted to hurt you. He was honest with me when he told me he was married but that he felt there was something missing in his life. He told me that when he saw the kind of person I was he could not help but have feelings for me.

I don’t know how our relationship started, it just did. I could not stop the emotional reaction I had to him. I could not deny the chemistry between us or the electric way that he makes me feel by just touching my hand. When he told me that he would ask you for a divorce and make an honest woman out of me I begged him not to. I never wanted you to shed a tear because I was weak when it came to loving him. I never wanted to look into your eyes and see anger, hurt, betrayal, and pain when you gazed back at me. I wished that there was a way to make you happy too… I tried to find a way to make you happy, but i couldn’t so I settled for keeping your life the same as it had been.

I regret that I might prevent your relationship with him from improving. I know your husband and I know he is not a bad person. He does not want you to be sad, but he does want to feel that love again, do you remember the love you two once had? When you were in college and you used to read text books on your beat up old couch while rubbing each other? Oh yes, he told me about those wonderful times. He misses them, but he said he tried to bring the feelings back and no matter how hard he tried, they wouldn’t come.

I wish you would be my friend. I wish I could hold you now and tell you this will all be okay. I know you wouldn’t accept this from me, but please know my relationship with your husband was not started as a way to make you suffer. I wish you peace. I hope that you can accept me one day.

Sincerely, The OW (The Other Woman)